hi rachel, i’m using this blog now, for you.
you know i’m really pessimestic? 
(diu can’t spell it right)
i really don’t know what i want anymore ! maybe 2 days ago i still did, not now though.
all i want, is a huge break, then i can laze around.
this weekend was good; esp saturday.
m,t,j,p,j.
hmm, but still i’m still tired.
still lazy D:
bye rachel <3
i have this tendency, to write a post and then make it private/delete it.
does that mean i’m attempting to run away from the truth ? or is it just habitual.
just came to a conclusion today, i can state points(well obviously anyone can), but i just can’t explain it well enough.
really really need someone to comprehend what i’m thinking, cause even i can’t do that.
while, i’m too busy trying to read into others actions.
my thoughts are jumping about, but really, i need to concentrate.
i stuck to my promise that i will not go out as much/hopefully not at all. i’m keeping to it but that doesn’t make my studying more effective.
anyways, i realised i lost touch with a lot of people, though not intentionally. its not cause i forgot, it’s cause of all this stress building up.
why does life have to be so stressful even though its all going to end someday?
take it easy, just for a few days.
though i might not say it / show it, i really need a hug.
it’s been a while, blog.
with my limited language and lack of creativity, i’m back to bore you with what’s bugging me.
i’m sorry, blog, i know you still love me. maybe?
lately, i begun talking to you again, it’s stressful how we were never friends to begin with.
i’m trying hard to impress you really.
i don’t care as much for you anymores, that’s for real.
but, you are still the owner, the people that brought me those sweet memories.
you are just like an incurable disease of my mind, that always affects me whenever i think about you.
doubt you will ever read this cause you never bothered much in the end.
i guess i don’t love you anymore, but it’s the bitter aftertaste that never goes away.
don’t want another chance, or so my brain tells me.
nothings been interesting.
except, karin’s birthday’s coming up, happy birthday to her in advance!
hope she enjoy her 17th (:
& have fun in hong kong this holidays.
besides that im feeling pretty down
don’t know what i want
and for once i rather believe in the horoscope then what i think,
thats how lost im feeling now.
我不知道，真的希望你还在，给我一点安慰
i wish this would be the last time i say i dont know
&goodluck alicia, i know all will be good! (:
rachel, karin, chloe.
sticker photos from last, last week. -_-
decided that my blog is… 很差．
i feel old already.
chloe commented that im already 17 soon while she’s still like 15.
though she looks older than me hehe.
can’t even remember how i was like when i was 15, but i think i enjoyed being 15. (:
it’s sad that i don’t think i would ever be as happy &stupid as i was then.
haha if only.
going to play pool on thurs and saturday!
我要很会打桌球!
was Lu’s birthday on friday so happy birthday to her. hehe.
had dinner and then sticker photos.
learnt to play pool on saturday but i’m still really bad at it. ):
was so tired last night slept halfway while on the computer
&when i woke up the internet didn’t work anymore.
so went back to sleep.
if only i could go back online then ¬ react to the offline msg.
good weekend, only if it is not weekdays starting tmrw.
was talking to alicia today about our dream houses.
hers is like a zen type of house with like white pebbles, waterfalls, glass panes and like bamboo stuff.
&then i realised, my dream room would consist of one huge comfortable mattress, with built in tables and such.
maybe it somehow all reflects on how we are, how we feel?
she asked me to focus more about this point so i should.
maybe it’s just a personal choice, a lifestyle that she wants to have, with everything being organised and close to nature.
white pebbles, glass panes are all very basic and simple items, which means nothing would be complex in her home.
oh &maybe nature cause she likes green? 
for me, just hope for a break from school, from everywhere and be lazy however i like, just like when i was younger and i would go home and just watch tv right till i go to sleep.
heard about this guy in singapore that is like the director of an insurance company, 40 plus with 3 kids.
&lately, he went back to university to get a degree in architecture, along with other 18 year-olds.
what does he want in life?
alicia’s answer: to accomplish what he couldn’t do when he was young.
apparently there was eclipse today
but no eclipse in melbourne. -__- so i didn’t get to see it.
can’t believe school just started cause already can’t stop sleeping in class.
hello chloe (;
Why – Secondhand Serenade
The buttons on my phone are worn thin
I don’t think that I knew the chaos I was getting in.
But I’ve broken all my promises to you
I’ve broken all my promises to you.
dont really listen to songs like this,
but it feels like one moment i’ve got everything &the next it’s all taken away from me again.
now i’m just ready to give up, only problem is i don’t know how to.
I should’ve known this wasn’t real.
not long ago, i wanted to go to france in october.
but, conditions were that i had to earn my own money to go.
was really excited and all cause it was a chance to travel &at the same time meet some friends that are really impt to me.
staying at youth hostels and all.
not until recently i realised, end of october was when i had my exams,
so there’s no way i can go.
even if i earn the amount required.
sorry i can’t go, sure you guys will have a good time.
really miss you all so much, miss stony so much where i met some of the best people ever and had the best year of my life.
lets go travel end of the year &play mahjong all day long! (:
